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I became addicted not through being prescribed them but by a friend saying, hey have you ever tried a vicodin?.... after i tried one i slowly at first took two a week... then a month later....more a month later..more... it has now been over a year and half i was taking up to 5-15 a day. i loved them but like so many other stories on here i got hooked so bad i couldnt see how much damage i had done to my family, inlaws, and myself.... i had to have them to make it through work, the day and espically if i had something special planned with my wife like a night out for drinks or something. without them i could barely make it out of bed,make it through work, and my thoughts were constantly around where will i get my next dose? i was spending all my tip money every night and almost half my checks.... i even would pick up shifts to make more money not for my family but for more pills... |
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one day i recieved a text mess. from my wife wanting to know what i was on because she knew i was on something....to be honest i was relieved to finally tell her what i was addicted to.... i had been lying for so long..... covering my tracks finacially and alot more.... it was exausting and i wanted help but didnt know how to ask for it,,,,it took her figuring it out after all this time. keep in mind i had only been married since april so this was a prob. she didnt know about until november... this is how self involved i was...putting her through this from day one of marriage. we also have a precious daugter 4 months old. |
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my recovering wasnt as long as others on here. i spent 24 hours in a detox center 3 hours north from where we live. it was very difficult to find a center for this particular problem. alot of places wouldnt take me. how interesting that medical centers are so quick to hand out these meds but when it came to my prob. we had to search high and low....
the 24 hours were a living hell...surrounded by addicts of other kinds such as crack, herorin, and meth really opened my eyes... even though i didnt consider prescription drugs to be in the same class, but there i was surrounded by the same people that i had become. while there i had nothing but a clock to stare at...the thoughts of losing my family, my daughter ate and ate at my heart. i couldnt believe how fast i had gotten addicted and how severe my withdrawls were....finally some how i made it through detox. i wouldnt wish that experience on my worst enemy... it was hell on earth literally to me.
today i am back with my family tryin to get back to the old self - my withdrawls are gone thank God but my sleeping habits are still adjusting - i dont complain... but im back to painting(im an artist) funny how you dont do the things that make you truely happy while on these things. i also enjoy every second with my little one and wife....part of my recovery includes exercise as well,,, a big part considering im trying to rebuild the way my body should operate on its own. and last but anything but least. i came back to God for forgivness... it is through him alone that i am makin a comback at such a tremendous pace. he has given me a second chance. |
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stay away from them if you can. i know they are ligitamately used for severe pain but anything less try any other relief wether it be a chiroprator...therapist etc. just one pill one day a year ago led me to hell!!!! if you even begin to think you are becoming addicted tell a friend your family anyone... cry for help. this is a rapidly growing problem for many many people in america |
