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This first time I ever tried oxy I was at a party with my boyfriend and one of our friends had just recently started selling the drug. He said he would give it to us for a good price if we wanted to try it. It all went downhill from there. We started using oxy every weekend to party and have a good time with our friends, then it turned into weekends a few nights a week, and before I knew it was everyday. I was addicted and didnt even see it coming. |
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I truly just woke up one day and realized that I didnt have a life anymore. My entire life was oxycontin. My relationship with my boyfriend was based 100% on oxycontin. Thats all I thought about all day every day. I realized that if I wanted my relationships back with my family and my friends that I needed to stop. I needed to get clean. And once I decided that I was going to get clean there was nothing stopping me. |
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My recovery was extremely difficult. I had been living with my boyfriend for 2 years and I knew that in order to clean I needed to end our relationship and get clean. I moved out of his house and moved back home.
I did not want to go to a treatment program. I was determinded to do it on my own. Simply put, withdrawal was the worst week of my life. I was sicker then I have ever been in my entire life but I just kept telling my else that by the end of the week it will be over. It was one of the hardest things that I have ever done but I made it through that week and I proved to myself that I could do it.
I made it through that week and was clean for a few months but then the realization that I was no longer with my boyfriend set in and I became very depressed. I started using every once in awhile just to take my mind off of things and feel better. But after a few months of that I realized that isnt going to make me feel better and that I was just hurting myself. I am very proud to say that today October 13th I have been clean for 30 days. It is an amazing feeling and I can only hope and pray that it continues. |
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Never give up. As bad as today may seem tomorrow is always a new day. Talk to your friends and family it is important that they know how you are feeling so that they can be there for you. When ever I am having a very bad day and just feel like no one understands I go to a local Narcotics Anonymous meeting, just being in a room full of people who know exactly how you feel makes me feel a thousand times better knowing that im not alone. |
