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I suffered from shoulder and back pain due to scoliosis and being a massage therapist. Everywhere I went, people I knew and trusted were using OxyContin and Lortab. They offered it to me for pain and it worked so well. I then used it at work a few times and had the best response from co-workers and customers.
I actually got 2 raises at work since using oxicontin. This occasional drug use made my feelings of depression and anxiety and pain go away which turned into a vicious cycle. I couldn't afford to take as much as I would have liked most of the time but when I could I would take about 120 mgs. per day. That was as much as I could handle.
This has only been going on a little over a year and it includes my fiance and all of our friends that are addicted. A few of them go to the methadone clinic every day and don't plan on stopping. I am going to it for about a month until I can take off work and go to rehab. I finally confessed to my family about my addiction 3 days ago. they had suspected because I never had any money and was gone every night until about 10 pm b/c i was looking for pills. I would cry myself to sleep if I had to go to bed without anything for in the morning. I wouldn't go to work if I didn't have anything, but that wasn't too often. |
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My turning point has been going on for about 10 months. I have been trying to quit since then. i did quit a few times only to start up again because of painful withdrawals. I am only 21 and still live at home and I am in college, so i couldn't hide my withdrawals. So i just didn't quit.
I have been researching my options for about 2 weeks and am planning to start methadone treatment in 2 days and then checking myself into rehab at a local hospital as soon as I can get a vacation from work. I am very excited that i can finally recover and that my parents are as supportive as they are. I was very scared and ashamed to tell them, but I didn't want to lie anymore. If I don't quit now, I will never be able to marry my fiance and move on with my life becuase we will never have any money. He plans on quitting cold turkey b/c he doesn't have insurance. I am very proud of him! |
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I am about to recover and I hope to have many people supporting me and helping me stay clean. I know I can beat this. we are currently calling around hospitals to find out their costs and recovery plans!
I will graduate in 2 months and am planning on getting married in 7 months and want my life back. |
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My advice to others is to never EVER take even one OxyContin unless you have no other options and your doctor has a plan for you. Surround yourself with good people and believe in your self. If you are honestly suffering from pain, take Advil and workout. Working out is a great way to strenghten your body and help the pain.
If you have friends who are addicted to prescription drugs, try and help them beat it and if they don't try or aren't successful, make new friends even if it is difficult and upsetting. you won't regret it! take it from me. My life has been ruined because of this and I want my life back.
Chasing pills is no way to live your life day after day after day. You will lose the friends you thought you had and dissapoint your family and sober friends. Dont' do it to yourself and to the ones who love you. Get help now and stay away from those who are bringing you down. If i can do it, anyone can! |
