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About 20yrs ago it started. My mom had a script for lortabs. Ggrowing up i was around all of her friends that used every drug under the sun right in front of me. Eventually i was sneaking into her cabinet and grabbing some for myself then it went to 3, 4, 5, up to 20/day. On top of opiates i smoked weed, drank like a fish, did cocaine (funny thing is I kicked cocaine right after college but continued with lortabs. this went on up until 6 months ago. |
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My beautiful wife LEFT ME. my wife of 3 yrs came to me with her concerns about my taking pain pills. of course in the beginning i was very upset with her bringing it up. i felt 'attacked' and became defensive.
Finally one morning i really took a look at myself and what i was doing, all the money i was throwing away, all the times i yelled @ my wife due to frustration when i ran out of pills and used her as my scapegoat, all the times i couldn't remember a conversation from one day to the next, etc. She finally walked out on me. i don't blame her. she was miserable with me and what i was doing to us and my family/friends/life. Then it happened... |
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I forced myself to quit at home. found a rehab center near my hometown, took 30 days off work and went into inpatient. at first it was terrible, withdrawls, depression, etc. when i went home i researched everything i possibly could. my family doctor put me on antidepressants. i still struggle with the mental fact but i've been clean of everything for 36 days now. my wife still has yet to return but we are working things out right now. if it weren't for her i never would have dealt with the reality and seriousness of my addiction. |
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GET HELP. research all you can. INPATIENT is the way to go. if i can do this anyone can. i read this quote somewhere: "addicts do one of 2 things. they either DIE or get clean" |
